by John Galt » Tue Aug 12, 2014 2:48 pm
i am clinically depressed and i can tell you for me, it would not work.
for a while i took some medicine for it, instead of drinking. i went in because i was suicidal and like robin to the outsider i had no reason to be. rationally thinking about it, it didn't make sense, and still doesn't, but it felt as if it was the correct choice of action at the time. the medicine helped then, i think (the psychiatrist referred to it as putting teflon back on the pan), but depression isn't completely bad. sometimes i do happen to glean some key insight onto something by reviewing it for the 5th time today 10 years later and still trying to think of what the better thing to say in that situation was. because that's f**k useful... but what is really useful about it is it focuses. i don't take the medicine anymore because it makes me not care about anything at all. not work, not people, not computer games, not relationships, not anything. i just existed. if thats how all you people are then maybe robin is right. well, that and it also made it impossible for me to finish. like, hours man, even by myself. hell maybe i needed erotic asphyxiation. i got sick of sex, it was way too much work for no reward most of the time. how depressing is that? it wasn't really: i didn't care about anything.
Americans learn only from catastrophe and not from experience. -- Theodore Roosevelt
My life has become a single, ongoing revelation that I haven’t been cynical enough.