by Mo~ » Thu Nov 14, 2013 11:58 pm
I tried to get a tubal when I was 19 and was told I couldn't have one till I was 25 AND had two children. The pill failed, so I had my first one on my 21st birthday. We decided when I was 25 that I would have a tubal at 26 unless I was pregnant so my eldest wouldn't be an only child but, at 26, I'd have the tubal whether preggo or not. I was pregnant and fighting to keep the baby without dying myself, so we had a second then I had my tubes tied the next day. Two girls and no even considering trying for a boy. f**k it. I was done. I did my uterine duty for god, country and man. I was done.
Fact is, and as my girls whom I would kill and/or die for know, if I could go back in time to 19, I'd fight a helluva lot harder and even get my parents involved in getting sterilized. I didn't ever wanna be a mommy. I never liked kids. I never babysat because kids annoyed the living hell out of me. I DON"T LIKE KIDS! I DON"T LIKE BEING AROUND THEM! I DON"T LIKE HAVING THEM AROUND ME!
Thing is, I had kids and they are my responsibility and I'll be damned if I won't honor that. Sides, I really do love mine. Just f**k with them even in the slightest and you will find out how much. Still, if I could go back and change things, I would.